21. Lover of nature and all things outdoor. Except for skunks. They just ruin anybodies day.
Irony.
I found two women, I equally enjoyed either’s company. One has the time but isn’t here, and another doesn’t have the time but is here.
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The plan.
When her brother leaves town… I’ll ask her out. Not to be my girlfriend, but for a certain kind of commitment. I will ask her out to a date that I will actually put effort into. Wine, flowers, good homemade food, all of that.
I’ll take her to one of the nicer places here in the valley and have flowers in my backpack, and just give her the flowers at the waterfall, and just straight up ask if she’d go out with me.
I’ll take her somewhere to hike and have a picknick packed, and we’ll sit somewhere with a nice view for lunch. Then we’ll hike some more… afterwards, I’ll take to Hudson’s or Red Door for dinner, and invite her over to my place. I think that sounds like a good plan… any suggestions?
Again.
The lonely one.
I’m talented. I messed up a sure thing… well, I wasn’t going to follow through, but I woulda liked to have partied some more at the hotel. And she was good company. But the call never came. Oh well.
Time to continue to learn the lessons of a lonely man.
She was incredibly good looking. Would’ve considered it if I hadn’t had something that might be worth more to me some day.
Weddings… well, I don’t get along well with weddings. They remind me of how exactly my life will not go.
backpack
sleeping bag
sleeping pad
two person tent
waterbottle(s)
pocket knife, pepper spray
feminine hygiene products
maps, compass
watch
shorts (2)
socks
flip flops
walking shoes
underwear
toothpaste, tooth brush, toilet paper
baby wipes
dental floss, tweezers, scissors
deodorant
mini can…
@wavesofstruggle shoot me an email at kevin.stone9@me.com and I can see if I can’t help you with that list! I’ve got some experience with the gear, actually used to work in outfitting. So just shoot me an email with what you think you need, what you intend on doing on your trip, etc. and I’ll see how I can help you!!
For the first time in a long time I’ve been wanting to just disappear. And again, I’ve taken a step towards that goal.
While people have been partying their hearts out, I’ve been shutting mine down today. Time to turn emotions off again. Time to deal with real life. I just don’t get why I can’t just have one semester without death, without having to move, without having to learn tough lessons… alone.
I don’t have family that is just a call away. Hell, I don’t even have friends that’re just a call away. They are always dealing with something more important.
From Today, Sunday, April 22nd, 2012, I swear to myself that I will be alone, I will not reach out, I will not touch, until someone does it first. I will not make a friendly gesture towards anyone who as not shown me the same first. I am done being who I want others to be.
And the realization sets in.
I’m out on my own again. I’m moving into my uncles, but I can’t stay there for long. I have responsibilities this summer, and I don’t seem to have enough time to even be alive right now.
I can’t do this on my own… when I told my parents I could, I lied. This is just… too much right now. Why can’t I for once have a stable, normal life? Maybe then it wouldn’t be so hard to be alone.
The Hunger Games
Woody Harrelson is a Sigma Chi… Proud of his part in that movie.
